During the first part of my life I thought that everything was exactally the way it was meant to be.
Back then I went to a Christian Church and learend what I thought wasn't true at all. The people
there seemed the only convesations they had was to put others down and then when these people
showed up they would smile in thier face and call it Christian love. Once I started school is when
I finally realized that everything I was told in the past was all lies. Through elementery school I
believed al the lies and was always abused by others. It wasn't till middle school that I found drugs
and alcohol. After this I could stand up for myself and became accepted by others. I became what
is known as a black sheep because I followed all the so called bad people. Since this time I searched
for spiritual truth through L.S.D. and other drugs but I still couldn't understand why people were
the way they are. After High School my search for the truth took me to the Gates of insanity and
I almost attianed it but my trip turned bad. I went to see a shrink and told him my beliefs. He then
told me I was a pariniod-scitzo and put me on worse drugs than I ever found on the streets. These
drug made my skin totally pale. I would shiver and shake and felt very sick. After I told my shrik
the way his pills were making me feel he though that I wasn't taking enough so he hade the bright
idea to double the dose. The next day I went into convultions it took them a while but they did
help me by shooting me up with Depocote. This did stop my convultions so they through me into
a small cement room after this I striped of my shity little gown and liad there naked curled up in
a little ball shacking, sweating and crieing. While I was in there I began to see and hear things that
in reality were never there. I saw Jesus standing over me and he told me that he was the way the
truth and the light. He told me to just surrender to him and die or my soul would burn in hell for
all eternity. He was right because this was the beggining of life in hell for me. After this they
kept me drugged up and thet kept me scitzophrenic for over 20 years,and I was constantly in and
out of mental institutions. I did find a lot of answers to my questions though. I found that what
Judas Priest said about all the saints being in hell was the absolute truth. In these mental hospital
I found a lot of others just like me who started to find the truth also. All these people always seemed
to be happy and show unconditional love no matter what the orderlys did to them. These are truly
God's people and are the ones this society truly fears, so we call them all sorts of names of disrespect
and turn thier familys agianst them. This is done for the good of all society though becase heaven
forbid we learn the secret of true happieness because if we did we couldn't smash others down and
that would be a disaster for those who attian wealth throuh thier munipulaton an lies. I finally
found the truth for myself. I found the reason this world is the way it is today. It all dates back to
over 2,000 years ago. The ones we know as the divine or star people were jelious of all mankind
because we were all given the freedom to be whoevery we wanted to be in our lives and believe
in whatever what we thought was true in our own hearts. One of these Star people came to earth
in search of the meekest most obiediant virgin he could find. This star person was not of this earth
and his name was Gabriel. The virgin he found was named Mary. This Star person insimunated
her with a Child that was not of this world. Mary was told that she was chosen to carry the child of
God himself. This child was born to rape all of mankind of any resect for the human race. When he
was 13 years of age he first spoke to the religious leaders of this time. This is when the lie that
humanity were all sinners and were all unworthy of Gods love. As this child grew he kept on saying
that he was the only one who knew the truth and the rest of this world was benieth his standards.
He told us all that pride was a sin and he was the proudest most self-rightious thin that ever walked
to earth. So we crucified him for all his sins. We must remember that this was the slickest thing in
sin this world had ever known so when he was crucified it left the world wondering just what they
had done. This is when the lie of us all being sinners and unworty of God's love upon the cross for
the whole world to see. We must remember that he was not of this earth so he was never really alive
as we know of life today. 3 days after his so called death he returned to this earth proving to everyone that he had the power of life and death. This brought total fear to this earth because he told us all that
if we didn't believe in him and was obiediant to confess all are sins and try to attian to his words that
he would send us all to a place he called hell and our souls would burn for eternity. This is the reason
why everyone thinks that they are doing by trieng to change others through thier love,compassion and
rightiosness. These are the people who keep evil going strong today and they are the true sinners of
this world. These people seem to be compleatly secure in thier rightiousness. In reality though these
are the ones who are spitting in God's face. He created us all for who we were meant to be and we are
all seen as equals in his eyes no matter what we believe. This is like telling God that we dont trust
his perfection in creating us because God never makes junk. The one and only true God doesn't want
us all to run around in fear of his judgements and to always be obiediant. Quite the contrary he is not
a God of judgement, self-rightiousness,fear and obiediance. In fact this is the axactly the oppiset of
the God I now know. My God today is a God of acceptance and love, and he wouldn't do a thing for
me until I had the balls to stand up to this wicked society. Once I did this he started to do wonders
for me in my life. I told my srink to shuve her pills and detoxed on my own. When I did this all the
love and compassion turned to hate. After I stood up for myself I was kicked out of most of the mental
health programs I was attending, but I found something that they will never attian and that is respect
for myself and peace and serinity. I've been through all this shit for my own good though because I
never get angry and nobody can ever smash my spirt ever agian. What I altimatly found out that it
really doesn't matter what religion we care to worship we all play the fool to this Christ. Believe me
when I say i've been on one side of the spectrum to the other and what I found from Christian to Satanist if we form a group that all think that thier way is the only right way we all live in judgements
and hate for others that dont think as we do. No matter what we believe now if our hearts are filled with judgement and hate we will all play the fool to the divine and be thier slaves for eternity. I did find a
way we can all defeat this evil Christ brought apon us all. All we have to do is swollow our faulse
pride and tell the the truth the same way they told us the lie. We must tell the rightious that we know
of all the evil and confussion the Christ brought to this earth, but we still love and forgive him and
accepts him for what he is. This will leave the rightious running like cats with thier tails on fire
because in reality Christ and the divine are all just a bunch of cowards getting humanity to turn on one
another and do all thier dirty work for them. Today I have my own philosifey I am truly uniqe to any
one elese and always follow my heart, and never take disrespect from anybody no matter who they
think they are. We must stand strong and loose all our judgements and hate then maybe we can put
an end to all the leaders, self-rightiousness and greed we find today. I pray for the day we can all accept
each other as equals and accept everyone for who they are and instead of trieng to control others learn
to share this world as equals. Once our stupid race learns this we can find the true brotherhood of man
and finally start to live the way it was meant to be from the start. We must all learn that it dont matter
what kind of sheep we are black ore white if we conform and follow we will all be lead into the
slaughter. Thats why I chose to be a goat and will never bow to the insanity of the Christ.
